Fall...

Fall always brings about the change of the leaves, and the cool crisp air. But this year is brought something sad!! Our beloved tree swing and climbing tree was felled in the beginning of the fall. It was a very sad day as that tree is was sold us on renting our place. So here are a few pictures...

Our poor ca was very distraught, and now sits and looks out the window all day long...

Mixed Feelings About Leaving

We are more than likely going to change wards. Nothing is set in stone, and there are a couple of people in our current ward who would really like us to stay. But after two and a half years, enough is enough.

I am not sure how to tell people, so I thought I would be impersonal.

Maybe I feel like people don't notice us is because we don't fit the "stereotype" of our ward. It isn't really that they don't notice us as much as most do not seem to want to get to know us.

It is sad when your home teachers come over and basically say, if it wasn't for this assignment we wouldn't of had tried to get to know you.

Even though I am done trying to make friends in the ward, and I am done with the cliques and the looks. I am sad we won't be seeing those few close friend we do have every week.

Friendship is important to me, honestly it is what brought me back to church, but no one wants to be some place they know they aren't welcome.

What am I thinking!?!--An expression of fears...

*We are not expecting*

We have decide to grow our family... 

And I am scared! 

Over a year ago, I though it was time and it has taken this long for us both to agree. 

But now...

 I am worried about everything!! Honestly, one worry is that I must be crazy! Seriously, I met Brody in December of 2008 and we got married in May 2009!!! And now I want to have a baby with him. I know people have kids sooner than we are planning but... I still worry.

Of course I am worried about all the 'normal' things:

Can we easily conceive?

When/how will I know?

Will I be good at well, everything?

Will I be able to breastfeed?

Am I ready?

Summer Recap #1: Graduation!!

Well, my last few posts have NO pictures in them, but I have tons of pictures to post! So, I am going to start with the beginning of summer and work my way to now.

Graduation, was in May! I am so glad to be done with school! I graduated with a degree in Material Science and Engineering with a Minor in German and Mathematics! Man, when you put it like that the 6 years seems reasonable. I still haven't mailed out announcements... I probably should do that. Maybe that will be my goal Christmas cards and Graduations announcements.

Here are some pictures from graduation.

Engineering Arch with my parents.

Just a little bit of sisterly love...

My Best friend came to visit!

25 By 25 Revisit--8 Months

Well, it has been 8 months since I posted my 25 by 25 list. I thought I would take a moment to reflect on it and make change a few things to be more realistic!

25 by 25

Lose 50 lbs--So the semester was harsh, then I took a vacation to Texas. If you have never been to Texas, expect to gain a few pounds!! Well, this goal really comes down to good ole' will power... I think I am just going to see if I can go down a pant size or two by January

Graduate--DONE!! 

Finish 4 of the 12 knitting/crocheting projects I have started... I finished ONE!!! And am working on number two. After this one is finished, I am going to finish things for B and some unfinished Christmas presents from last year...

Publish a research paper--This one is not possible, although I am helping B with some stuff at work for a paper

Go 10 days with out spending any money-- This is my goal for October.

Go on a date with Brody once a month (4/12)--This one is easy! I have even be trying to come up with "free dates"... Any Ideas?

Read my scriptures more regularly-- This is actually a challenge for me, that was extended to those I visit teach.

Run a 5K in 30 minutes (in Nov I did one in 46 mins, March 47...) I think there is one coming up in Nov...

Work out 3 times a week for 10 weeks straight--I am really good at working out once a week... If I do this then I will be ready for the 5K...

Attend the temple 10 times (4/10)--I need to be more committed to this and my scriptures.

Have 100% visiting teach for the year (8/12) 

Organize and keep organized my office--work in progress... I had it clean, then work picked up. It is more organized than it normally is.

Take a box to Goodwill monthly (2/12)--um... We have a box, but getting B to agree on what needs to go is the challenge.

Save $1500 (have $1500 in savings)-- My second job is helping with this. Except, student loans are coming due...

Deep clean the kitchen bi-monthly (3/6)--I hate cleaning the kitchen, but a clean kitchen makes me happy!

Dust monthly (it is so dusty in Pullman!!)

Finish Tree of Life Afghan

Make a habit of getting up and out of bed for the day with the first alarm-- Does 8 am count as getting up early...

Have a baby/get pregnant-- I guess I can only get pregnant now...

Ski a Black slope (currently a moderate blue skier)

Put pictures in our picture frames--This one is going well! Until I hung a bunch of new ones...

Finish our wedding/honeymoon/anniversaries scrapbook

Keep the living/family room clean for a month--Done!! now to keep it clean!

Keep a weekly journal--I should probably get a journal... 

Kiss and tell Brody I love him, and a reason why DAILY--A lot harder than it sounds...

3/25... I have a lot to do before January!

Summer is over...

And it is a very sad fact for us. Brody took the summer off from school, which was wonderful for me during the summer, not it is not! School started a few weeks ago, and he is taking two classes again. Honors Calculus two and Honors English. He hates being the oldest person in his classes of mostly freshmen.

Other than School starting nothing new has happened in our lives. Although we have been doing a little bit of "home improvements"!

We recently sold our hideous floral couches we have had (we got them for free so convincing B to sell them and purchase new ones has taken some time). We had a full set; seven-foot couch, love seat, and a winged back chair. They did not fit in our living room, and I was done with them. I had dreams of covering them, but the thought of actually doing it, overwhelmed me!

Isn't that floral print lovey....

After selling our couches we got brand new black faux leather with a white detail stitching on it. Since I now spend more time at home, I couldn't stand that the curtains did not match the couches. So then began the redecorating. We got new curtains and curtain rods and rearranged a bit. I am working on the last few details and when I am done pictures will be up!

I haven't been the only one with a little 'home improvement' project. B has been working on a bike shed! He got all the lumber free from work, it was a GIANT pallet. He broke it down to make a floor, and three walls. He now has plans to make a roof and a door. I am excited because we really do not have room in our house for bikes!

Feeling left out, angry, and coping!

In the last 6 months I have felt like EVERYONE and their dog was announcing they are pregnant. It has been SUPER HARD on me, for many reasons. I had been handling it alright until June, when I had a major break down and went into a slight depression over the whole issue of when to have a baby.
I would get mad at people who couldn't keep their mouths shut about how they just found out, or how they were not sure they wanted a baby yet, or better yet the 'It was an accident!'. I tried to busy myself with projects and a much need long vacation away.
Things got much better, especially when we finally decided we were ready, but had to wait until school started! Then came the 'slap in the face'... My brother, who he and his wife had to move in with my parents for various reasons, announced of FACEBOOK, they are expecting! Yes! On facebook, not in a phone call to his family. They had just taking the home pregnancy tests and were 'so excited, we weren't thinking'!!!
I wanted to jump through the computer and punch his wife in the stomach, I still do but more of a b**** slap for being so stupid!
This last weekend I went to Oly, to see some friends and to go blueberry picking with my sister, as with our tradition since she started high school.  I was so made about the whole situation that I refused to stay at the house for longer than and hour because I couldn't handle running into them. Mainly because I, was to tempted to do something irrational. Now my brother thinks I hate him, and I do, to a point, but it really does hurt to find out your sister-in-law is pregnant over facebook, especially when you have been off birth control since January and 'flying by the seat of your pants' since March. But I am more mad at his wife for being stupid enough to want a baby while they are living with my parents!

But in the last few days, I have been able to see that I am coping and moving on! Which is HUGE for me! (Brody is just really glad I didn't get sucked into another depression with the news, me too! Our house can not handle me not cleaning for an undisclosed amount of time...) I noticed that when I saw my friends announcement on facebook of he and his wife excepting, I was excited. I have also been frantically knitting and making hats for all the people I know expecting. Although, I am feeling a little over whelmed by the sheer number of people I know who are having babies, or just had! Last time I looked my list was 24 or so... Well I guess I better get back to my hat making!